So that’s a weird title, right? “Painful yearning to be an interior designer”?? Who says that? Well y’all, it’s just about the only way I can possibly describe how I feel. It’s a feeling that has weighed heavy on me for quite some time and I feel like I need to write about it and just get it off my chest.
For years I have held a passion for interior design, but since I didn’t have a degree in the field (and to be perfectly honest, I used to not be all that wonderful at it), I never knew if that passion could ever turn into a full time job. I HOPE and PRAY that one day it will. I study interior design EVERY DAY to better myself as a designer. I take on small jobs here and there to gain as MUCH experience as I possibly can. I’m doing all I can now to hopefully set up my future. But you know what? Sometimes that isn’t enough for my crazy passion driven self. I feel like I’m not in the occupation I was meant to be in. It sounds dramatic. I know. If you haven’t noticed already, I can sometimes be dramatic. What can I say? I grew up performing! Anyways, you get the point;)
It’s kind of funny actually. I graduated from college with a graphic design degree and have worked as a full time graphic designer and web developer for the past 5 years. But you know what? I don’t really feel like I’m the worlds greatest graphic designer! And I sure as heck know I’m not meant to sit in front of a computer screen for the rest of my life writing HTML code. In fact, I feel MUCH more natural picking out linens and paint colors than I do designing a logo for a business! Weird, right??
So what have my crazy passion-driven emotions taught me? Well, not much really. BUT I have learned to face the fact that I simply need to remain patient. Because as the above quote states, you cannot rush something that you want to last forever. I know I want to have a life long career in the design field, so why don’t I just work hard and stay patient? All good things come in time and I just need to continue to remind myself of that.
Thanks for letting me vent you guys! I feel much better;)