So that’s a weird title, right? “Painful yearning to be an interior designer”?? Who says that? Well y’all, it’s just about the only way I can possibly describe how I feel. It’s a feeling that has weighed heavy on me for quite some time and I feel like I need to write about it and just get it off my chest.

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For years I have held a passion for interior design, but since I didn’t have a degree in the field (and to be perfectly honest, I used to not be all that wonderful at it), I never knew if that passion could ever turn into a full time job. I HOPE and PRAY that one day it will. I study interior design EVERY DAY to better myself as a designer. I take on small jobs here and there to gain as MUCH experience as I possibly can. I’m doing all I can now to hopefully set up my future. But you know what? Sometimes that isn’t enough for my crazy passion driven self. I feel like I’m not in the occupation I was meant to be in. It sounds dramatic. I know. If  you haven’t noticed already, I can sometimes be dramatic. What can I say? I grew up performing! Anyways, you get the point;)

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It’s kind of funny actually. I graduated from college with a graphic design degree and have worked as a full time graphic designer and web developer for the past 5 years. But you know what? I don’t really feel like I’m the worlds greatest graphic designer! And I sure as heck know I’m not meant to sit in front of a computer screen for the rest of my life writing HTML code. In fact, I feel MUCH more natural picking out linens and paint colors than I do designing a logo for a business! Weird, right??

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So what have my crazy passion-driven emotions taught me? Well, not much really. BUT I have learned to face the fact that I simply need to remain patient. Because as the above quote states, you cannot rush something that you want to last forever. I know I want to have a life long career in the design field, so why don’t I just work hard and stay patient? All good things come in time and I just need to continue to remind myself of that.

Thanks for letting me vent you guys! I feel much better;)



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Thank you for stopping by The Blissful Bee! I'm Amy and I'm the writer and designer behind the blog. I have a passion for interior design, fashion and simply living a stylish life. I hope you enjoy your "stay"!

15 Comments

  1. Oh my gosh, your post could have come straight from my mouth! I feel EXACTLY the same way you do, and have the same background. I studied graphic design, and have been working for 5 years doing web design & development. I have been dreaming for a few years now of how wonderful, amazing, and so fun to be an interior designer, but my lack of degree and general “well, how the heck do I get there?” question in my mind has held me back. I haven’t done any client work before, and I guess that would be the first step. I just feel this passion behind designing interiors that I’ve never felt about doing logos or websites, and want so badly to do it for a living! And just like you said, all I know is that staring at the computer all day staring at HTML & photoshop is not what I’m meant to do! I keep hoping to find someone locally (I’m in Phoenix) that I can apprentice under to get myself started. Let’s both stay positive, I’m sure there are plenty of people out there who have made the leap & would say to keep following that urge!

  2. I’m a new follower/reader…and I love your blog and Insta (I’m a local girl too!!). As for today’s post…I totally get it. I’m also a graphic designer, which I also studied in school. And, I love it. But some days…I wonder if it’s my passion…like it used to be. I mean, it pays the bills and I enjoy it…but my heart wants more! And, I think that is a good thing…to not get too comfortable or settled. Life can get boring that way! 🙂

  3. Amy, this post speaks to me! I eat, sleep, live and dream about design. And not just for me, but I dream about designs for other too! I have a successful career that I enjoy and am good at, but I don’t have a passion for it like I do with design. One day I would love to design full time or better yet, host a show! One day we will get there! You are certainly well on your way! I love your blog and your designs!

    Robin

  4. I’m actually doing just the opposite! I have an interior design degree but I feel like my passions are leading me towards graphics. I love interior design and still hope to practice it, but when I discovered how much I enjoyed graphic design and that maybe I wanted to go in that direction, I was afraid to admit that maybe I wasted my time with my degree. But from what I’ve experienced, the principles of interiors and graphics are interchangeable, which will only strengthen you designs overall. So it wasn’t a waste. I haven’t been a follower long, but I’ve always liked what I’ve seen of your interior work. My advice, for what it’s worth, Go For It!! “Do more of what makes you happy.” (Sidenote: I have that first image as the lock screen on my phone as a constant reminder. I love that quote!)

  5. I say this all the time! I’m not doing what God gave me a passion for, and it does just drive you nuts. I love vintage funky junky flea market stuff and want to do that or have a store to sale these types of items. That’s when I feel my “high”. I love shopping, decorating, and making new items with these old items. Fear seems to sometimes (most always) take over though. Thanks for this post.

    Shannon ~ bohemianjunktion.com

  6. I feel the same way about starting my own event planning business. I do not have a degree in this field (only tons of experience), but to take that first step is SO SCARY! While I am dragging my feet at doing this, I say if it is something you are passionate about, do it. You will only regret not.

  7. That first photo is my phone background. 🙂 I actually graduated with a degree in Interior Design – I love everything about it and always knew it was what I wanted to do. However, when I graduated college in 2009 (the pit of the economy downfall), I could not find a job in the field. After working *for free* at a few firms, I had to put my big girl pants on and get a job that could pay the bills and ended up in the Web Merchandising/E-commerce field. I think this blog is a great start to get into interior design! You obviously have a talent! Have you thought about adding a “design services” tab to your site? You can even offer your services for free for a little while to build up a larger portfolio. Life is too short not to chase our passions. 🙂

  8. Amy, this post is exactly how I have been feeling for the last 2 years! After I graduated from college with an English/Journalism degree, I went in to the field of pharmaceutical sales(crazy, I know). Once I got married & we started our family, I hated all the traveling & dreaded my job each & every day. I’ve always had a passion for design & love helping family & friends decorated their homes, and I became obsessed with all things design about 3 years ago. My prayers of wanting a career change were answered about a year ago when the pharma company I work for was sold to a larger company & they no longer needed those of us that were employed before the buy-out. So for the last year, I have been focusing on interior design & doing a few rooms here & there. My baby is almost 6 now, and I’m ready to take the leap & do more:-)

    Can you tell me what have been the best books/websites you have(or are) studying on design?

    Thanks in advanced for your advice/input…I absolutely love your blog & style!

    Stacie

  9. Amy- thanks for sharing. I feel like I could have written this. Your style and passion will get you there- you definitely have the talent. Thanks for bringing us along in your journey and know that I can totally relate. #nomoredeskjobplease

  10. Thanks for being raw in this, it was really encouraging to me who, though quite further behind, desires to chase my passions even though they sometimes feel out of reach or “someone else has already done it.” But the world is B-I-G and we were created to be passionate! So chase those dreams and thanks for encouraging me to do the same 🙂

  11. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. I, too, don’t feel like I’m doing what my heart is telling me. I started a blog to follow my heart and do things I’m interested in, but have allowed others to steer me away from the true direction that I want to take the blog. I’m working really hard right now to change that. I graduated from college with a degree in elementary education and soon after wanted to do anything other than teach. It has taken me 10 years, but I finally feel like I could be on the right track to doing what I want. The quotes you posted here have now been pinned so that I can keep reminding myself I’m not the only one who has all these mixed up feelings and that eventually we can all see our dreams happen if we give it enough time and work. Good luck with turning your passion into a career.

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