It’s Monday evening and I sit on the couch finding myself completely (embarrassingly enough) wrapped up in the drama of… The Real Housewifes of Beverly Hills. Oh yeah. Guilty pleasure for sure. That, along with Millionaire Matchmaker, Keeping up with Kardashians… I could go on, but I choose to keep my mouth shut for the sake of embarrassing myself any further.
Why do I love these shows? Lets see here. Fabulous fashion (err. sometimes fabulous fashion) beautiful homes, and what would appear to a lot of viewers as “easy living”. It’s a glimpse into another world that I will never live, nor want to live. Why? Because it’s just not in my cards, and I’m super thankful for that. What is in my cards? A humble life filled with family and friends and a dream that I can only fulfill through a ton of hard work and dedication. Ahh, sounds perfect:)
As I write this, I sit in my adorably small kitchen, cooking my homemade taco soup, drinking a glass of two buck chuck (a white wine that is literally $2, and tasty if I might add!) and listening to one of my favorite bands (Vampire Weekend) on my phone. And you know what I’m thinking? I’m thinking how the heck did I get so lucky? I have a husband who is my best friend. We live in a happy little home in a neighborhood and city we love and after living in Fort Worth for almost 4 years, we have met some amazing friends and have grown to be completely happy and content in the “now”.
It’s taken me a few years, and some tragic life changing events, but I’ve learned a lot about what I’m meant to do, and where I’m meant to be at certain points in my life. I’ve realized I will not be getting the 2 story craftsman style home with my wrap around porch at the age of 26. I realize I won’t be living that dream just yet because it’s not time for that dream. Instead, I’ve realized that this point in my life is meant for learning, growing and sometimes making mistakes. This time in my life is meant for building the dream so I can try to live a version of that dream later on.
So what exactly is “the dream”? What is it that I see myself doing? What am I building?? Well I’m not 100% sure. One thing I know for sure is I’m extremely passionate about interior design. I’m not a girl who can sit in a cubical at one single job for 30 years and then simply retire. I’m not that girl at all. There are so many things I’m interested in, so I’ll just name a few. I’ve always envisioned myself hosting a design show. I’ve also always wanted to own my own store. And another goal of mine is to potentially work with an interior design/home decor magazine of some sort in some way. So yeah… those all seem to be pretty tall orders. Believe me, I understand! But on the other hand, if I don’t set goals, then I will 100% fail. If I don’t at least try, then there is simply no chance of success.
I understand some people might think I’m nuts and think, “aw that’s sweet, she’s trying”. But that’s ok. Because like I said before. I’ve realized this time in my life is meant for trying things out, learning a ton, and figuring out what I want to do with my life. And guess what. I’m super excited about it. I love my husband, my family, my friends, my cat (as if I don’t make that point apparent) and my home. I couldn’t be more thankful for everything I have and I seriously wonder how I got so blessed.
So, what are you dreams? Are you living them, or working to build them? Or both? I feel like I’m kind of living both. I’m living my “now” dream while I build my “later” dream. It might sound a bit crazy to some, but it’s the truth! Sometimes I do find myself wondering, what exactly am I doing with my life?? Then I remember. Oh duh. Following my dreams:)